LONG LONG STORY..

its Thursday.
school was boring.

playing this "Say Anything" game during school hours as Mr Herman is not in school.he's sick,flu.tsktsk.
school ends at around 4pm.went work place.
slack,talk,eat.

start work 5.20pm.
early punch in.Alan asked me to punch in since i can start work,can earn more.hahah.that's what he say.it was not busy at all.first group of guest came at around 7.30pm.Zzzz.
second floor was not open at all.then first floor never even full.lol.
but got 7 staffs.2 is new staff.then "extra" cat.in pantry make the gula,etc.

last group of guest left at around 10pm.
after eating went off.reached around 11pm.
facebooked.televisioned and bathed.now blog.

tomorrow is Friday.week ends are coming.
rest days.


by the way, i saw Leonard just now.at tiong mrt.he was saying ," so no life arh?". because he asked me,school or work.i said both.after school,then work." he used to telling me" get a life".why are you working so much.." hahah.but to think so, if i don't work,i don't have much things to do.

after hearing what he say,while i was walking back home just now.
i was thinking about what he said.
but i guess i am really used to my busy and sort of hectic lifestyle.
school,work,school,work.just week end relax a bit.then some days of week days without work meet boyf.i am just 18,and i am like a working adult?.idk,maybe not really one,but busy like one.

but i am actually quite happy with my life now,no time is wasted.except for sleeping time.lol.
other then that,meet loved ones,work,or school.i managed my time wisely i guess?
and i am looking forward to a more independent life.my dream was to get a house of my own, and live by myself.or rather with my boyf.or rather i just want to lead an independent life.don't have to let my parent worry about me,and i could just earn my own money (MORE) and take care of them when they are old.

worked with boon last night,and i told him about this too,i am earning my own pocket money, and looking forward to a more independent life. and he was actually saying that it's good,but maybe a bit too tiring.. and yupp,its actually quite tiring at times, after school, was already feeling so tired, but still have to work..but well, that's my life.

but i actually prefer this kind of lifestyle rather then slacking at home after school, buried with tons of assignments or even worst, nothing to do.
i would rather work and earn some money.

am i really tiring myself out too much?
sometime i would just wish that i could sleep and sleep, no work, no school, can just relax my mind, and let it rest forever.sometime when things get too stress out for me,i would rather die in an accident.then there won't be anymore worries to my life.

but thinking through, i am really glad i met my boyf, although every time i meet him, most of the time over at his place,he might just be facing his computer more then me, but i am glad he is by my "sight".just a little hug and concerning words from me makes be feel happy enough.
and how i wish i've got the money to relax myself for a spa or something for once a month?.that's what i wish i could do next time.

am i so easily contented?
i am asking myself so many questions, who would answer them for me?
i myself don't know.

some time my friends around me was asking me, "May, you not tired one arh?", working,studying,complete assignment,accompany boyf,etc".i would just reply."ehs,okay la,tired lo,but used to it le barh". then i will start to feel really tired. then some would say" you got time accompany boyf meh?". then i was saying," got arh,i also not working everyday ma,then week ends also got go find him de".

my life is just filled with work,school, family and boyfriend.
and for family,i don't really spent much time with them.
after school i would have work,after reach home,they are already asleep.then woke up for school,they are out for work/ school.
just some days when i am free from work and not meeting boyf,then i would just see them,have a dinner together.i feel so "old" suddenly,like working my life out for don't know why.
just to earn some pocket money, or maybe "keep" for the future.but to be true,i don't have much savings, but what i earn is what i spent on.not on clothes, or fashion. but of my daily expenses.

though working for just three years.since i am 15.i gain much experiences.from servicing in hospital, to restaurant and even a few days of hectic sales.i faces different kind of customer, from patients, to foreigners, to locals and big bosses. working with nurses and doctors, with seniors and juniors,its all so different. different job scopes and different type of consumers.

may get rather pissed off with some of them,but well,we are still the one who needs to "work" for them.i am amount efforts i put on,the amount of earnings i'll have.i rather regret about spending all my money off right after earnings like a few thousand during my few months of full-time job.

i have lots of goals on life.
get my ass off from ITE.the to poly.off to some Full-time job to earn money to continues study till i get over with schools. then start earning for my life...
18 years old is not too young and not too old.a rather ,middle age for me.to a younger category.but i feel "old" in a sense that i am rather into working.sometime looking at my fingers,i saw actually old,wrinkled hands,though they are not! but sometime i just can't plan my time well for school and work.there may be some assignments to attend to,but i've got to work.so after i am back form tiring work, i have to start working on my assignment.

sometime how i wish that i don't have to work anymore,i can get myself pampered with some new clothes and relaxation. but i just don't have the money to do so.sometime just a good meal one or twice a week i feel so "rich".but after feeling "rich", i have to start earning again.

when can i get to earn and save more money at the same time..
life is like this,live it, or wait to die.

OMG.i have actually poured out so much things from my brain into this "journal" of mine.
okay,i shall stop here.
i know that no one would bother to even read this.HAHAH!
this shall be one of my longest post for this month?.lol.


and lastly, i missed you.
see you soon,
loved (: